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Steve Skojec's avatar

Hey folks, I am seeing your replies, but I'm in a very difficult state of mind right now where I'm trying to put all my energy into the work I need to do and even that's not going well.

The autistic burnout thing is real. I couldn't figure out why I kept going through this before. I've got to adapt to work with this somehow.

But the stress in my life at the moment is so high that it keeps me from having a chance to really recover lost energy. So I'm going to be more quiet in discussions like this one, because it's all just exhausting to me. I both want faith and hate it. I both want to believe in God if he's real and resent him if he is for never being there when I need him. For all the misplaced trust I've put in him. On the rollercoaster that is my life, I'm at the part where the thing goes underground through a dark tunnel for a bit.

I feel a need to retreat into abstraction for a while.

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Anthony Giovacchini's avatar

It seems to me that even if a "good" Pope ascends to the Chair of St. Peter, it won't restore the faith of so many who feel the same way about Francis as you. The fact that God allowed so much confusion and division in His own Church, at the expense of many faithful people only makes God look indifferent to it all. If something is objectively true, good, and beautiful, then I think it should be the one thing on Earth that everyone can recognize as such. If it requires an army of apologists to explain away a plethora of problems using mental gymnastics, then we have a big problem. And to be clear, this is not an endorsement of any Protestant theology or theodicy, that's a whole other wilderness of sectarian squabbling I don't want to deal with. I dunno man, I've been stuck in this spot for years, I feel like a broken record.

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