Yes, yes there is. (“There’s still some magic in the world after all.”)
I can relate to so much of this. Hubs is 62, I am 56ish. Our last child(unless God pulls an Abraham/Sarah on us ;) ) was born 13 years ago, on St Joseph’s day(Mar 19).
I have seen so many conversions and reconversions, in myself, personally. Keep moving forward. Pain means that you.are.healing. Gratitude is so crucial to keeping your head above water.
A couple of days after my first child was born in 2018, I got home from hospital one evening (he was very underweight, wouldn’t feed, so my wife had to endure a prolonged stay in the arms of the sainted NHS). I was exhausted, both physically and emotionally. I put the oven on to cook a ready meal, and then just sat on the floor and cried. And cried. I can’t tell you when else I’ve felt emotion like that.
My meltdown was beautiful. I was struck by the simple enormity of the whole thing; that this small child was flesh of my flesh, but on a much deeper level, the realisation that we had co-created an eternal soul, destined by God for God. And even beyond that, an unutterable love for this little human that transcends the normal limits of human understanding: the realisation I was seeing in my own love for this little child, a glimpse of the love which God has for me - and you Steve - and just how much He longs to spend eternity with us.
What a gift to be able to reminded of that moment by your words here.
I don’t know you personally, Steve, but I knew - I just knew - that a there is something worth sticking with. In the writing etc. that you do. In so much…stuff…that’s happened in these last few years.
This is one piece that confirms that.
You’re OK.
And Eli is …if I can say it about a boy…a pretty baby.
Awe, the Infant and His Infinite Love for you and your family.....He never stops blessing those whom He loves and who love him in return. Mark my word, Steve and Jamie, little Eli is a precious gift from God and will one day bring to light all that you now seek to understand. Praying for you every day.....
Congratulations, Steve and Jamie! He is beautiful. Almost makes me want a seventh. ;) We had four years between our last two and I can understand the swirl of emotions. Now, our last (who was also our littlest full-term baby) is 4 1/2.
Yes, yes there is. (“There’s still some magic in the world after all.”)
I can relate to so much of this. Hubs is 62, I am 56ish. Our last child(unless God pulls an Abraham/Sarah on us ;) ) was born 13 years ago, on St Joseph’s day(Mar 19).
I have seen so many conversions and reconversions, in myself, personally. Keep moving forward. Pain means that you.are.healing. Gratitude is so crucial to keeping your head above water.
A couple of days after my first child was born in 2018, I got home from hospital one evening (he was very underweight, wouldn’t feed, so my wife had to endure a prolonged stay in the arms of the sainted NHS). I was exhausted, both physically and emotionally. I put the oven on to cook a ready meal, and then just sat on the floor and cried. And cried. I can’t tell you when else I’ve felt emotion like that.
My meltdown was beautiful. I was struck by the simple enormity of the whole thing; that this small child was flesh of my flesh, but on a much deeper level, the realisation that we had co-created an eternal soul, destined by God for God. And even beyond that, an unutterable love for this little human that transcends the normal limits of human understanding: the realisation I was seeing in my own love for this little child, a glimpse of the love which God has for me - and you Steve - and just how much He longs to spend eternity with us.
What a gift to be able to reminded of that moment by your words here.
Thank you for sharing this so vulnerably! Your words inspire hope! Congratulations on the birth of your son Elijah Daniel!
I don’t know you personally, Steve, but I knew - I just knew - that a there is something worth sticking with. In the writing etc. that you do. In so much…stuff…that’s happened in these last few years.
This is one piece that confirms that.
You’re OK.
And Eli is …if I can say it about a boy…a pretty baby.
Loved this article. Always praying for you!
Awe, the Infant and His Infinite Love for you and your family.....He never stops blessing those whom He loves and who love him in return. Mark my word, Steve and Jamie, little Eli is a precious gift from God and will one day bring to light all that you now seek to understand. Praying for you every day.....
Congratulations, Steve and Jamie! He is beautiful. Almost makes me want a seventh. ;) We had four years between our last two and I can understand the swirl of emotions. Now, our last (who was also our littlest full-term baby) is 4 1/2.