I must confess that I just couldn't read this particular post.
Take it from someone who has spent years trying to explain, justify and make attempts to placate the harsh judgement foisted upon me by others who, for all their wise words, will never understand what I had to do to survive long enough to heal.
Please. Every effort you make to explain yourself, your actions, your feelings becomes a hamster wheel you climb on, going around and around.
You are where you are, doing what must be done in order to heal. It doesn't matter what I think, or anyone else who gives their two cents in words but has never walked in your shoes.
No one, to include me, can possibly know how you have suffered. No one, to include me, needs you to explain one more time why you must do what you must do.
Anyone demanding further explanation does not have your best interests and those of your family in mind.
Its time to stop dredging up the pain again and again for the purpose of trying to help someone understand. Those who have an ounce of love for you and your family get it.
You don't owe anyone an explanation, brother. Take your time. I pray the road and the beautiful places you'll see on your journey lead you to the truth.
The fact that you address the concerns of your readers proves you are not a scumbag. My prayer for you is to not only find your way home to family, but more to your soul where the God Who made heaven and earth loves you more than you can know. I say that in mystery, 'cuz I sure don't comprehend it, but do believe it. I pray for grace, for you to let the beauty of God's creation, which you undoubtedly see every day, to settle back into your heart and know you are not alone.
(I get up early, and after Morning Offering and readings, get to comment first- ha)
Thanks for clarifying, Steve. Thanks as well for bringing me, and so many others along on the journey. I pray and wish for you the very best and look forward to some really good Skojec writing!
Steve,
I must confess that I just couldn't read this particular post.
Take it from someone who has spent years trying to explain, justify and make attempts to placate the harsh judgement foisted upon me by others who, for all their wise words, will never understand what I had to do to survive long enough to heal.
Please. Every effort you make to explain yourself, your actions, your feelings becomes a hamster wheel you climb on, going around and around.
You are where you are, doing what must be done in order to heal. It doesn't matter what I think, or anyone else who gives their two cents in words but has never walked in your shoes.
No one, to include me, can possibly know how you have suffered. No one, to include me, needs you to explain one more time why you must do what you must do.
Anyone demanding further explanation does not have your best interests and those of your family in mind.
Its time to stop dredging up the pain again and again for the purpose of trying to help someone understand. Those who have an ounce of love for you and your family get it.
You don't owe anyone an explanation, brother. Take your time. I pray the road and the beautiful places you'll see on your journey lead you to the truth.
Thank you. I really appreciate that.
When people go out of their way to help you out, you feel accountable to them. But I really do need this time.
The fact that you address the concerns of your readers proves you are not a scumbag. My prayer for you is to not only find your way home to family, but more to your soul where the God Who made heaven and earth loves you more than you can know. I say that in mystery, 'cuz I sure don't comprehend it, but do believe it. I pray for grace, for you to let the beauty of God's creation, which you undoubtedly see every day, to settle back into your heart and know you are not alone.
(I get up early, and after Morning Offering and readings, get to comment first- ha)
Thanks for clarifying, Steve. Thanks as well for bringing me, and so many others along on the journey. I pray and wish for you the very best and look forward to some really good Skojec writing!